Sick people eat medicine . 

Rm 60 fly away from my hand . Heart pain . 

'' A new command I give you : Love one another . 

As I have loved you , so you must love one another . 

By this everyone will know that you are my disciples , is you love one another . ''

John 13 : 34 - 35 

I saw this and I cried . 

What can I do now ? I really don't know . 

Feel like want to cry and shout . 

But I can't do that . 

My heart felt uncomfortable since I knew she dislike me and think that I'm a cheap person . 

Heart pain . I couldn't tell people that how's my feelings now . 

Because I also don't know what is the feelings I have now . 

I just feel like want to kill myself . 

Childish ? Yeah maybe .

I know kill myself wasn't a good idea . 

But my brain keep asking me to kill myself . 

I don't know what happened to myself now . 

Jesus , please help me .

Please heal my heart ..