I pretend that I never get hurt . 

I pretend I'm strong . 

Friday's Afternoon , Shana came to my house . 

She walked to my house . 

I thought she was coming by bus or taxi , but actually she's not . 

Shocked when I saw her . 

Friday's Night , Combine Cg .

Heart felt uncomfortable . My soul was uncomfortable . 

I cried when I saw my spiritual father , Drumstick . 

I'm suffer , I'm pain . 

I don't know what can I do now . Ahh . 

Just feel like want to shout .

After Wei Jing told us the message , we back to our own cg . 

I've told them Jesus had healed me . 

Thanks Jesus Lord . :)

Whole body trembled after I share my testimony . 

I ran out and vomited . 

I'm scared to share out my testimony . 

Saturday's Afternoon , Cg Party . 

Two new friends came . Lenqluiis . :)

Felt no mood when the party started . 

I'm worried my grandpa . 

Although I'm not close with him , but he gave me many sweet memories when I'm a kid . 

Saturday's evening , Service . 

Enjoyed the service . Played so much with Jia Jia . 

Jia jia was so cute , like her . :D

Cried many minutes when Pastor asked us to plead guilty . 

I'm a sinner . I'm not a good daughter . 

I cried as I'm a sinner and I'm worried about my grandfather . 

Thanks Foong Peng and Josephine helped me . 

I cried again when KaiWern asked how am I and when whole cg praying for my grandfather . 

Gosh , I'm touched . 

Thank you , Kai Wern . :D

We went to Puteri's chatime to bought drinks before we sent MH go home . 

After that , we went to her house's outside for watch the view . 

Hmm beautiful . 

Stayed at there a while and chatted with Ying Ying and Jia Jia a lot . 

Told Jia Jia what's on my mind . 

May my dream come true . :)

Sunday's morning , went to hospital for visited my grandfather . 

4-5 years didn't visit him because he was at Segamat , Johor .

But now he came to Kuala Lumpur . 

Thanks Lord , he was okay and felt better . 

I saw my cousins and aunts . 

I like my third aunt , she looks like my mother . 

Same pretty . :P

Cousins became big girls and big boys . 

They still like last time , called my brother ''Chicken brother'' . 

My brother born at Chicken Year , so my cousins and aunts called him ''Chicken'' .

Played ''Talking Tom 2'' with brother when we visit my grandfather . 

Laugh non-stop . 

Honestly , I'm the first time played the game . 

So cute . Brother and I keep laugh because that cat looks stupid . 

Sunday's afternoon , prayer meeting . 

Mother and brother fetched me to church . 

Felt happy because I have long time didn't out with them . 

But felt moody after reached church . 

Cried until my throat became no sound during the prayer meeting . 

I just want to cry . Jesus , I just want You .

I'm very tired now , feel like want to kill myself . 

Jesus , why I can't hear your voice ? 

Where are you ... ?

I cried until the prayer meeting finished . 

Thanks Foong Peng , QiaoQi , Josephine and Jenny helped me up . 

I will remember your ''JiaYou'' . :D

Aikss what can I do now ? What can I do ... ?

Jyin came and reminded me many things .

He advised me how can I do . 

Thanks Jyin . :)

Chatted with Drumstick . 

He told me what's on his mind . 

Thanks . Thanks for let me say out what happened on me . 

Thanks for tried to helped me . 

After that , my heart felt better . 

Went 118 for calm down myself . 

Shana and that chicken came and accompany me . 

Thanks a lot . 

Monday's morning , school's time . 

Went to school and wasted my time . 

Went there for sleep and daze . 

I hate my school . I have nothing to do at school . 

I hope I can transfer school NOW . 

I opened bible and read when I am bored . 

Thanks Lord , He's still with me . 

But now , I started can't hear His voice . 

How ... ?

Jesus , I miss Your voice .. 

Where are You ? Where are You ? 

I miss You so much . 

I want You , I just want You .