17th August 2012 (Friday)

Today I went out again. 

I went to Setia Walk's Ding Cha for meet with Shana. 

Well today we took many photos. 

I helped Shana to photo shoot. 

I like to help my friends photo shoot. 

She is reading the magazine. I like this photo. :)

After we drank our drinks, we went to Shana's house.

Oh no, I slept on her bed. 

But the way, her bed was so comfortable. 

I slept very well. First time slept beside Shana. A bit shy. :P

20th August 2012 (Monday)

Well, today I am really down. 

I couldn't accept that I cried for so long. 

Thanks Angeline and Shana accompanied me when I am down. 

Angeline, your message was so warm. ;)

Shana, thanks for accompanied me cried. 

Whenever I am down, you are always be with me. 

I don't want anyone to be feel guilty. 

I spoke out, I cried out just because I couldn't endure anymore. 

Maybe after I leave somewhere, some people will forget me. 

Maybe they will never think I will sad?

I am afraid that my VIP forget me. 

It is very difficult to let me accept. 

What you did, what you said, I will keep in mind. 

Night, I hided myself into my bedroom. 

I cried so long. 

I cried because I cared. 

Maybe I shouldn't care so much? 

''The less you care, the happier you will be.''

Well never mind. I will used to it soon. 

Don't worry, I will not cry for you guys anymore. 

I will force myself to don't think about that. 

I should forgive and forget. But now, I really couldn't do that. 

Maybe some of you will say I am not mature. 

So what? I am not mature enough but it is my style. 

It is not your business. You no need to tell the whole world. 

BIG MOUTH. 

I couldn't found my joyful. Where is my joyful went? 

21th August 2012 (Tuesday)

Today is my Angeline's birthday. :D

I did some special photo card for her. 

First photo card. 

Second photo card. 

Third photo card. 

Fourth photo card.

Fifth photo card. 

Sixth photo card. 

Seventh photo card. 

Eighth photo card. 

Ninth photo card.

Tenth photo card. 

Eleventh photo card. 

Twelfth photo card. 

Thirteenth photo card.

Fourteenth photo card

Fifteenth photo card.

Sixteenth photo card. 

Eighteenth photo card. 

Nineteenth photo card. 

She liked it so much. Thanks dear for like my photo card so much. 

Night again. I hided myself again. 

I cried. I don't even know why. 

I just want to cry. I cried until my throat no sounds. 

First time cried for 2 hours. I don't even know why. 

After I cried, I felt better. 

I started to don't care what happened on me yesterday. 

Yes it is hurt that yesterday I knew somethings. 

But now, I learned to don't care so much.